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scarredoblivion @ 2005-09-21T20:20:00

2005-09-22T00:20:43Z

MSI show Saturday.

I am stoked.

and I fucked my beautiful layout up.

So fuck Lj.

I work too fucking much.

ANGRY TICKS FIRE OUT OF MY NIPPLES!!!

Oh yeah.

2005-07-08T02:51:34Z

Picture for Mike.

ohmahgawd.

Long time no...anything really.

2005-07-08T02:42:45Z

Well Milo never turned up sadly. I got a new kitten named Marley. He looks exactly like Mike's fatass cat for those who have seen it. I don't think I wrote about my new hamster either. I just run a freakin zoo man.

My new baby.

Smug face.

Chillin.

Le Ham stuffing her cheeks with cat food.

Glenn is joining the service. I am freaking out but I know it will be really good for the both of us...financially and emotionally. It will make him so much more responsible, and it will make me concentrate more on school and such. I'm going to need some people to talk to when he's gone...I am also going to need a roommate in a year.

Love.

scarredoblivion @ 2005-04-19T18:52:00

2005-04-19T23:09:10Z

I swore I'd never write in here again, but I am desperate.

Milo is gone.

He's been missing for 2 weeks now. I am flipping out. You have probably noticed the trillions of lost cat signs around town.

I miss him so much.

Call 567-4585 if you know anything. He is a gray and black tabby and his belly is tan.

Yeah...

Your mizzom.

2005-01-30T22:21:33Z

I got a mouse.

Her name most likely veill be Thumbilina...Tina for short. Too bad she can't make llama noises.

I bet she'll have babies too because she was in a cage with boys and girls.

I'll EET EM.

Milo!

Flowers from my new garden I planted for myself.

Shmoopty peupty paints.

Bound

2005-01-19T00:28:23Z

When the world bleeds perfection

hsdfksdhfkjshf Bling.

2005-01-09T19:07:09Z

Yep.

2004-12-26T20:05:45Z

New computer...which means I get the old one in my room.

Woot.

HAH

2004-12-05T01:04:27Z

So I have been informed a certain Glenn Hess has been telling everyone I was the one who wrecked his car....hahaha how about NO. If anyone is under this impression, please be informed that he crashed his own car. It makes me feel peachy to know, out of all people, he would lie about me. and about something so petty! What differnce would it make if it was me that crashed his car? Would it give him more dignity? Would it make him look like less of an ass? HA.

I am so beyond done here.

oh yeah and I have a kidney infection.

Peeing blood clots is fun!

uhg.

2004-11-27T01:05:29Z

I was in a massive car accident on thursday. Thats why I havn't been in touch with anyone whatsoever.

Nothing is going on in my life that I wish to write about in here.

I changed my oil and filter today...cleaned the inside of my car out...and gave it a bath...

I'm glad I still have a car.

Poor Glenn.

My neck hurts.

I should go.

The internet is so overrated.

bye now.

Your Mom.

2004-11-20T23:34:36Z

First and foremost, get well soon, Meredith! I love you.
Milo in his new leather collar with star studs and two red bells on it...and the little antlers...he hates me for it lol.

aaaaaaand I hate photobucket, livejournal, and the internet in general.

I am doing ok.

I am glad bj and mere love da kitteh behbeh...I miss him =(
I am glad he went to you guys though.

um...I need to go on a diet.

aaaand...

JO MAMA!

I have nothing else to say.

hjskjgfsdkuf

2004-11-05T17:18:08Z

wang.

This one's for the record:

2004-10-20T00:11:13Z

Note to self:
Don't ever give them your soul.
Lock it up inside.
Don't let anyone in.
Only you can help yourself.

Dig yourself a hole.

scarredoblivion @ 2004-10-18T19:53:00

2004-10-18T23:54:39Z

I hate people.

People suck.

I mean nothing to you.

End of story.

Take the world upon your shoulders

2004-10-15T19:06:30Z

I finally have one day off. I know it's only one day, but for working nonstop for about 2 or 3 months it is good enough for me. I was wondering if anybody wanted to hang out tonight because I have been out of the loop for so long I don't know what anyone is doing...other than my cat...who is currently taking a shit in his litter box right next to me...and it stinks...really bad...but ANYWAYS.I had an ok day. It started out awesome. I had eggs and cinnamon buns made for me while I watched tv in bed. Then I was late for school for the 9823748th time and got detention. I almost finished my skeleton in anatomy. I had an awesome day in photography. Meredith and I got to go take pictures together. We took framing and abstract pictures. My framing picture was of my hands sticking through bars of a broken window in the guys locker room (which we slyly talked the coach into letting us in) and yeah it really stinks in guys locker rooms and they have scary community shower thingies. I took my first abstract picture of the huge metal stand that the drum major person stands on for band practice. For the second one I layed down on the ground undernieth these glass block window things and took an angle up picture of them. Meredith's pics were awesome too. Her framing one was of her standing behind this palm tree with her hands wrapped around the front and I layed down in front of the tree angle up so you couldn't see anything but the tree all the way up to the top and her hands. Her two abstract pics were of these poles along the sidewalk and tables lined up in the patio. Yeah I got carried away talking about our stupid pictures...but I really liek photography...and yeah. I am entering a bunch of my pictures in the photo contest. I can win a new camera...or money...or other...stuff...OW MY WISDOM TEETH ARE GROWING IN AND IT HURTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. ok. I think I am done.

ummmmmmmm....I love my pony! Shes lost over 300 lbs and she has awesome muscle definition. Well none of you would really know about my horse...except maybe Nicole...because shes the only one who has ever even seen her in person. So yeah all my hard work on keeping her exercised is paying off. I know...nobody cares...but oh well.

bye.

Are you ready to be libertated

2004-10-09T15:21:16Z

I really have nothing to say.

I can feel fall in the air though, and I love it.

Haloween Horror nights on the 30th.

I have mad crazy tennis elbow and I have to wear an arm cuff brace thing.

I guess thats what I get for overworking myself so much.

but I like the money...no I take that back....I LOVE the money.

I guess I really should at least quit one job...maybe...

I am hungry...even though I just ate mcdEEs breakfast. We still don't have phone at my house, so if you need to get in touch with me, leave a message on my cell (538-9743) and I'll call you back.

Happy birthday yesterday to my beautiful Nicol-e mol-e mol-e (I am online at the library and I had to work yesterday so I didn't get the chance.)
Don't get too drunk, and be smart, lovely. I hope my donation helped ^_^

Anyways, not much more to say...I have gotten boring...thats what happens when you grow up and realise you have to support yourself I guess...

Love to all.

Fairytails dividing, broken wings unfold before you.

2004-09-29T20:35:50Z

So yes. Hopefully that was our last hurricane. Hopefully. We definitely were double-massacrayed. Our roof is useless, needing to be entirely replaced, almost every large tree exept our oak trees are gone, and flooding almost up to our front door step. Neighborhood canoeing for all! Seriousely. In other news, I got my nipples pierced.

I had a lot of interesting randonm thoughts to share on here, but due to the stress that my parents are putting on me with the cleanup and all, I forgot them.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand...
everything sucks...
and yeah go die.

I rise up only for you to bury my soul again

2004-09-20T13:02:49Z

Mom took the cell phone away so I can't get ahold of anyone/they can't get ahold of me. Sorry Liv, I got grounded Sunday. Long story. I still have no home phone. Bastards. I got a huge sword (four and a half feet long to be exact) and a new ring that is gorgeous. I will have to take pictures once we get phone back. The ring is white gold with two moons and a star cut out of it, and four little diamonds in between them. It is so pretty. mmm and I want to do my sword...like 92875928375 times.

I will try and write again whenever I get the chance ( I am at school)

I miss you all.

The fallout

2004-09-11T18:28:24Z

I cant be this now
Its not me anymore
I really tried Ive tried
Attempted suicide
Fucking convulsing and
Constantly denied
Subcountaing me somewhere
Inside

Scratching the walls of my glass coffin
Scraping raping
My nails on the glass on the bottom
Is there an end where does this end
If i was you id fucking hate me too

end you.

Wow.

2004-09-11T18:19:47Z

So yes. I am at the librizzle. We just got power back and still don't have phone. Our town got massacrayed. Ashers never called me. I have noone to talk to/hang out with. I have been taking showers outside in my neighbors hose for over a week now. MREs are god. I now have 5 boxes full. I have never been so bored. Right at the moment there are several firetrucks in front of my house because when they turned the power back on it lit some trees on fire and it was making zappy noises and stuff. I called Meredith, Olivia, Mike, and several others but to no avail. I don't know what top do with myself.

Bye.

I need to die.

2004-09-01T00:15:07Z

My one heart felt too much from the start.
I've seen people come and go.
Living large, and living low.
You can build up your walls sitting on death row.
Let the curtain fall on your murdered soul.
You can wash it all down swallow your story.
Get smacked off your head go down in drumroll glory.
You wont solve it committing self inflicted crime.
Go on pull the trigger this will be the last time.

scarredoblivion @ 2004-08-25T19:16:00

2004-08-25T23:17:54Z

The testament's a bloody knife
The rotting meat's the butchers wife
I eat myself stupid
I starve myself smart
I thought she was a crow
because she cried tomorrow

My only fear is living in the shadows

2004-08-25T23:03:57Z

I am not one who is much for prayer...but I am going to be doing something...Chris left Sunday for Iraq. My big brother. My advice giver. I am going to miss him so much. If anything happens to him, I am personally escorting myself over there to kick some turban. I love you brother.

I have aquired another lovely massive sinus infection. I just stopped taking prednizone 2 days ago and he put me back on it but with a higher dosage and a longer period of time. I am also on biaxin and some crap that starts with an A. He gave me hydrocodone...not a good idea...I use it too much and it is very addictive...and I just ran out of it too...surgery soon...not looking forward to it.

I miss Nicole.

and Nika.

and Jessie.

and Chris....I miss him so much...

I miss...everyone...so much...I feel...disowned...I have noone to talk to...I was talking to Meredith about it in pottery. It is like I am not close enough to anyone anymore to talk about personal issues that are on my mind. I can't relieve myself of the burdens of what has been happening lately. I feel like I am slowly being eaten away by it.

Noone ever left messages on my cellphone for me. That felt good. Usually at least one person does. Maybe I am just fading away to everyone.

Mmm. The Distillers keep my sanity. If someone gets me tickets to a Distillers show I would do them like 9812374928734 times...well...maybe...but not really...because I'm not a whore....and stuff...but we could make a deal, right?

UIHOSIUHSLIHSLISJBA MY HEAD HURTS.

I just want to fucking sleep for one full night, and then maybe my sanity will come back to me.

heh...

2004-08-12T08:34:05Z

Yes. It is 4:23 in the morning. I can't sleep because of the incessant itching. I han't slept in 4 nights now.

Nicole-I went to the doctor...for you.

but GUESS FUCKING WHAT?!? They put me back on Prednizone!...or Prednisone....however the fuck you spell that shit. He also perscribed me a steroid anti itch cream (witch obviousely doesn't work) and...clarinex...I don't understand doctors...clarinex is like...for...well not poison ivy...bitches. Also Predizone makes me not be able to sleep anymore because it makes me UBER hyper and hungry all the fucking time.

Anyways.

Olivia-The reason I couldn't call is because my mother (The Face) forced me to go school shopping all day, then she made my appt. for Dr. Wien, and I left my moms cell in my Aunts car when I got back from NC so I had no way to call you. My mo was also being uber bitchy and said you couldn't stay the night because "You are tooooooooo sick". How the fuck would she know???!??!? God I h8 her. Yes. With a capital 8.

I got me cellphone back late yesterday. Don't bother calling just yet because I have a total of *drum roll* ZERO MINUTES! Who the fuck used all of my minutes?!?!? That pisses me off. I bought that cellphone AND the minutes with MY FUCKING PAYCHECK.

Homos.

You guys leave me messages anyways because I can check them from home. My number is 538-9743.

Anyways, I'm off to apply more bogus cream and eat some fruity pebbles because I am really hungry...even though I just ate like 15 minutes ago...bastards...Imma be fat...

Bye.

oh em eff gee make it stop!

2004-08-10T15:46:49Z

I am getting itchyer.

yeah. Someone help.

Uh alibOb: can you spread PI to other people?
ThePlague12: yes
Uh alibOb: damnit
ThePlague12: just by touching them
Uh alibOb: even if its been a week and millions of showers were taken?
ThePlague12: so go touch your mom quick, fast, and in a hurry-like
Uh alibOb: YES
Uh alibOb: you are GENIOUS!
ThePlague12: if it's still there then yes
Uh alibOb: bah!
Uh alibOb: so I guess I can't hang out with anyone for like...2 weeks or so...
ThePlague12: touch her face
ThePlague12: lol
Uh alibOb: THE FACE